‘Guess
what? When it comes right down to it, wherever you go, there you are. Whatever
you wind up doing, that’s what you’ve wound up doing. Whatever you are thinking
right now, that’s what’s on your mind. Whatever has happened to you, it has
already happened. The important question is, how are you going to handle it? In
other words, “now what?” ‘
Jon
Kabit-Zinn.
I spend so much time contemplating what I
will do with my time and not enough time actually doing what I plan to do,
living with my head in a tomorrow which never arrives because my incisive worry
quells any chance of the present moment enjoyment.
My quandary is; that I allow my sentiment
control my day. If I rouse full of wakeful slumber or drudgery, I permit the
emotion I encounter in that sleepy moment dictate my plan for the day. ‘Oh it’s
much too cold and wet to traipse all the way into town today…’ Ah sure I will
stay home and write…’ (That’s a personal favourite of my morning lethargy, and
of course nothing gets written!)
I guess the point I am trying to arrive at
with this post is that I must tune my mind to the present moment, live in the
day I am in and make full use of each precious hour it contains. My goal this
week is to make a weekly plan of activity in which I embrace the wonder of each
moment. Then I must actually DO what I have set out to do in a mindful manner,
just experiencing, not judging. If I feel sad or lonely… so be it… just notice
the emotion.
See, what I tend to do and can foresee
happening this week is; me doing anything to escape experiencing the negative
emotions that plague my daily existence. My favourite method at the moment is to
blank out in front of Netflicks with my cat and a gallon of tea, oh I even
found myself the full price section of a clothes store riffling through dresses
I can’t afford, not to mention facebook…. As I say, I wonder aimlessly though
my day and then get a shock to see the day is almost over. I tut to myself how
unwonderful my day has been and make a wee vow to change my behaviour tomorrow
only to experience an all too familiar sense of déjà vu come four o’clock the next
day.
It must end. So I am off to experience the
next moment as mindfully as I can and will be back to write soon. Adios amigos.
